5 P's

Proper
Planning
Prevents
Poor
Performance

important moments:in the end...

so, exams have officially ended for me.
didn't really survived it but i'm glad it's all over
S paper was a big screw up, never felt so bad after any math paper
oh well, time to move on in life. no point looking back
will never get a second chance at this
trying to learn to let God do the rest

important moments: things i'll remember

well, the 3-day-seemingly-endless-exams concluded today
it was disheartening
it was a challenge, i took it
didn't survive it the way i had hoped for
for the first time
anxiety stabbed me right at my heart
i felt heavy. gasped for air
this i will remember

whether it is the exam hall or room
or be it the 04s6a classbench
there will be comic relief
guaranteed
the times of laughter
and of feeling like we're all in the same pits
after a murderously difficult paper
thinking and re-thinking of the future
this i will remember

the times my hands felt heavy
and my head was low
through the ill preparations
the tiredness due to lack of rest
the rushed meals
and during those important 1 hours
and two and three hours
this i will not forget
the storm that calmed before the ride
the signals that guided me through the dark
the walls that kept me from breaking apart

thank you Lord for telling me to remember
at the most important hour, You will be there

and thanks to you for bearing with my grumblings
sorry i behaved so selfishly

i want to scream in despair.
but there isnt even enough time for that.
sigh.

if chem3 drew first blood...

...gp was ownage!

important moments: afterMath

...the REAL challenge has just begun.

GP1/2, PHY1/2, CH2 + EC3, PHY3 + EC1/2
all in 4 days...

important moments: broken rhythms

it was silent today.

where's my blues?
the swing that keeps me groovin'
beat it! paradiddle doodle dadadididum
not too fast, not too slow
steady like a metronome
tick tock tick tock you'll be on time

where's my jazz?
the ooh ah sexy solos
chillin' through the heat of it all
easy going on that which is complicated

i could hear a thread fall today
there was no music
..in me

in the deepest darkest hours i had today
thank you for being my guiding light
and filling in those missing notes.

important moments: mental tsunami

For the past few weeks, i wake up every morning telling myself that the upcoming exams should be called the small 'a's... and not 'A's. i thought, "hey, the only competition i have is with myself"...quote from initial D:the movie. well, my supposedly infallible calm took a nose-dive today. for one moment, the fastened door that sealed my anxiety flung wide; a tsunami of ill-thoughts gushed into grey matter, challenging the very strength of this fortress i painstakingly upkeep.

that very precise moment, i felt alien to my usual self.
a fog of uncertainties was all that i could see.

how can i let that which builds me, fail me?

resolve. willpower. and His blessing, as i was humbly reminded by gina. commit everything in prayer.

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." - Hebrews 11:1

.thank you.

important moments: in the beginning...

kanawanaitte akirameta yu me wo sutezu tsumiagete
mucha de mubou na teppen ni aru
yume wo tsukamu ishizue ni nare

boku no te wo nigire issho ni minaikai
kesshiteraku janai ga saikou no sekai

I'll pile up the dreams I thought couldn't be fufilled without throwing them away
And become the foundation stone that stands at the peak of the absurd and the reckless

Grab on to my hand. Would you like to see it together?
By no means is it easy, but it's the best kind of world.

-Re:Start - Yakitate! Japan 3rd Ending Theme

...let's keep our promise...
..i won't fail you..

chillout in 3 weeks time, i'll be waiting for you!
ganbatte!